God's will versus my emotions With both ladies, I got very excited at the thought of "maybe this is the one?" My emotions got worked up, I felt like a school kid. Now, even as I go on this trip with Church Friend, I do not feel emotionally charged but look at her as a good friend whom God could draw me to and visa versa. Then again, it could be that we are always to be friends but with appropriate, respectful boundaries.
Slow and steady, pray and fast These should be my guiding thoughts and actions when I think someone might be "the one."
I know the feeling of getting way too excited in the beginning wondering if there could be something to it. I think I allow myself to wander in wonderland for the first few days.... but I guess in an attempt to real myself back in, I just shut down. I'm sure it's a protective barrier of some sort but it isn't a healthy way to react. I've got to find that balance between silly school girl with a crush and jaded divorcee with a grudge!!!
Psa 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
Now, even as I go on this trip with Church Friend, I do not feel emotionally charged but look at her as a good friend whom God could draw me to and visa versa. Then again, it could be that we are always to be friends but with appropriate, respectful boundaries. 
