It seems like years since I've been here - no wait it has! But it's always good to come back, say hi to old friends and remind yourself where you came from.
It's been over five years since "the bomb". Life is so different I can't begin to tell you. BUT there is still work to be done!
On the surface I am one strong lady. I moved 3,000 miles away, entered a new relationship, went back to college, gave my career the kick in the butt it needed and have finally begun to accept my faults and weaknesses.
Underneath all that is a lady who is easily hurt and needs constant reasurrance. A lady who at times pushes her new man away and has no idea why! A lady who everyday has thoughts of her X and can't make herself stop!
People always ask how long it will take to get over the D. The general rule that use to be quoted was one month for every year of your marriage. That would mean 25 months for me. It's been double that and I know I'm not done healing yet. Here's hoping someday I will!
I have a good life here in California with Rob47 but the struggle continues....
Love to you all Flower
"It's not what happens to you, it's what you make of it." Zig Ziglar
