The flame is flickering out...

[SirPrizeMe]

Thanks BM, you are always so supportive. and good advice.

I do want to focus on the children, but I felt that I was squeezed pretty hard. W refused to move or sell the house, changed the locks and filed a petition for protection against me. She also petitioned for financial support in excess of my monthly take-home pay, and got it. The result is that I had no house in which to see my kids, I was legally barred from seeing them anyway, and I had no money with which to soothe my sorrows. Pitiful indeed.

At this point I am re-building. I cannot fulfill the court ordered support payments, so I will do the best I can while at the same time establishing a new (rented) home for me and my kids. I refuse to get squashed. What has happened to me is ridiculous, and it is all W's doing, but I won't let her stop me. I will work to fulfill my dreams, I will be the best father I can be, and that means providing a safe and happy home for me and my kids. I hope she can do the same. By the same token I really wish she would stop harassing me financially and legally.

I am not worrying about W. I have not spoken to her in 10 weeks, because of her petittion for protection. I have informed her family from time to time about what I know of her. I think she is still tilting at windmills. I think she needs help. I hope they see it.

I do so want to believe that the truth will come out eventually. My friends say it, her friends say it, everyone encourages me this way. This is the kind of thought that keeps me from "taking the gloves off" and retaliating against her legally. I see no benefit in that, though many people have advised me to do it. I think me striking back (for example, assasination of her character as a mother, which is a very plausible case to make) would make people feel vindicated on my behalf. But it wouldn't benefit me, and it won't benefit the children, and finally, it just ain't me to do that kind of thing.

anyway... I still think she needs help and I hope her family are hip to the groove. Because she is not accepting help from me at this point.