Keep looking for a C, Treese, you really need someone you can really talk to!
As far as H goes, it sounds like you know what to do, you need to figure out how. That's where I think a C might be able to help you. I think it is different for everyone. But I do think that it is important for you to be happy with yourself, and I don't feel like you are right now.
I wish there was a magic spell, but I don't know it!
