OMG Here we go again!! What Have I Done??

[water2moon]

I guess the reason I don't want to file..yet, is I really do feel that my H had a lot to do with this and how she is acting..He kept stringing her along and what he did was sooo wrong. He may believe she did the initial chasing but then he always took her back and then wrote her love letters, sent her texts making her believe he still loved her. I have so much anger at him as well that I don't completely blame her. And now he wants to act like everything is fine and we'll be ok???I begged him to do this months ago, now part of me has given up..I'm so confused that i don't know what i want right now..time will tell I guess..I should be happy right? My h is really back, wants to work on us and does not want a divorce..so then why do I feel so sad??