And I keep messing up - NOTHING that H would ever know but in ways that I know. I obsess about him (mentally) still way to much. WAY to much!! I just asked myself a questin- and i am going to throw it out there...
IF I spent as much time doing _____________ as i do obsessing about H and or ow I would be ____________.
Here are some of the things I thought of... If I would EXCERCISE as much as I do obsessing about H I would be as fit as I was 2 years ago.
If I would READ the BIBLE as much as I do....I wonder what God would teach me.
If I would spend time LEARNING EXCEL ...I would become very profecient.
If I would spend time reading anything I would gain some brain cells..
Ok then there is if I drank as much--- and well that woudl be very very dangerous!!
Just something to think about. I keep doing what I shouldn't do...even did the FREAKIN' drive by tonight. Some "research" i had done led me to think that OW may be on her way out (again) YES YES I snooped and he is back on Match.com. YET her car was there....needless to say he hasn't found his replacement yet.
Just need to stop it - and yet i choose to do it...i am making CRAPPY CHOICES yet I keep choosing them. WHEN WILL I QUIT IT!!!???
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
