AMY, You have NO REASON to feel bad, or a failure. Yes, what you did a long time back was very bad and wrong. You admited it, apologized to all parties concerned, and tried with everything in you to make amends for it. It takes a HUGE amount of courage to do what you did and I salute you for it! AMY, you are the ONLY person that I have seen on here that has come out of an MLC and did everything to make it right. Unfortunately for you, Jeff is all about kicking the dog for the rest of his life. I feel as though he has made a sad choice, but it is in fact his to make. If that is the way he feels about things, I think it should be him that mans up and ends this, not you. Its not fair to either one of you.