I have been out of town all weekend. I have some deep rooted issues with my dad that have had a pretty disastrous affect on all my relationships. I decided that while H had the kids this weekend, I needed to take a little trip to visit my dad and resolve some things. I won't go into much detail on that, but the visit was VERY good. I let go of some pain that I have been holding onto for years. I knew that if I want to work things out with H or have a relationship with ANYONE in the future I needed to do this. I am really glad I did. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted. I feel free.
One of the things I will talk about more happened on Saturday night. I don't know if I have mentioned this before on here, but when I have talked to H in the past about the issues the kids are having he has always blown me off and said things like "Well they never act like that when they are with me." It was starting to really tick me off. Well Saturday night at around 8:30 H called my cell. My S5 was about to go to bed when he remembered (quite upset about it) that he had not called me yet. When I got on the phone with S he was just bawling his little eyes out. It was torture to hear him like that. He just kept saying "I miss you so much Mommy! I've been missing you all weekend!" The one thing he said that I know had to bother H was "I don't want to be hear with Daddy. I want to go home to your house." He was just SO upset. I talked to him calmly and reassured him about how special he was, and that I was never going anywhere that he couldn't come too (a concern that he revealed to me last week). He finally calmed down a bit, and I talked to H briefly. No real conversation with H, just "Don't worry too much about him, he'll be OK." because he knew I was concerned.
When I got off the phone, I was feeling terrible. I really wanted to be able to help S with his feelings. The good thing that I think has come out of this is that H finally gets to see for himself what this is doing to the kids. He hasn't been able to see this behavior before. I am glad he finally sees it.
Anyway, that is my whole weekend in a nutshell. I'll check in tomorrow. Right now, I am going to go relax and have a few beers. Have a good evening everyone.
