Thanks, Sage. I'd be honored to give you some input even though your posts are often so deep and eloquent that I could hardly know what to add.
I stayed up too late last night writing a long letter to put in a card to give H for our annaversary. Still struggling with whether or not to give it as the basic theme is "come home now and let's get to work on this repairing the damage we've done to what we created all those years ago: us together".
H called to make sure I'd gotten up (does that often, and I know that acts of service are his LL). BUT, no mention of our annaversary today. I don't know what to make of it. In my heart of hearts, I'd hoped that he'd show up with the ring I'd given back to him when we separated and ask me to marry him again and set an actual date! I know I'm being unrealistic, but a girl can hope, ya know?
I want him to come home! I want him to make a decision and be determined to work with me to change the old patterns. It's going to take a lot of time and work and patience and support of each other like learning a new language. He says he has decided and does love me and is doing everything he knows how to work on himself.
Rambling on here...this annaversary thing has me feeling a little unhinged.
