Dispite all of my venting in the last post--I heard some very good stuff from my H this morning. He called to make sure I'd gotten up early enough to drop S16 off at his sports camp. (Very considerate of him to do).
Out of the blue H said, "I miss you, babe".
I nearly fell out of my chair. Five months of separation--he misses me. And now I am "babe" again? I think it's been 2 years (literally) since he called me that!
As if that wasn't enough to shock and befuddle me, he went on to say that he enjoys the time we spend together now, even when we talk about the difficult stuff...because he knows we have to "go there".
OK, at this point I'm ready to call 911 for the electro-shocky paddle thingys they use to restart people's hearts!
Could it be possible that the end result of this mid-life crisis crap will be that my H will have some new personality that I don't know yet? One that remembers what it's like not to dislike everything I say or do? One that behaves more mature? One that is more emotionally available? One that doesn't avoid communication, intimacy, and conflict at ANY COST???
Who was that masked man? Can a severly stoic, near-50 year old Native American male play the part of Lone Ranger anyway?
Yeah, he'll probably be back to Stone Man or Evil Father Guy or Belligerant 16-year old Guy tomorrow...but I'm gonna enjoy this new good stuff while it lasts.
If I can believe that there is the possibility for improvement at the end of MLC, it would sure do a lot to keep up the PMA through the lousy days.
In the end, could it be possible that I will want to write the XOW a "Thank You" card? Don't think Hallmark has one of those either. What would that look like? hmmmmmm
