Made second attack nozzle at the fire. Assigned to the attic. You can never see in a house fire. The smoke is just too thick. When that happens, it seems I get a slide show in my mind of B and the girls. It can actually be comforting as you make your way to the fire.
But when I get back, I have such a strong desire to call her. I try to think of other things while we put the trucks back together but it always seems to go back to B and the girls.
It really puts my stomach in nots when that happens. 7 months and I still love her so much.
I am doing the things I am suppose to to let go. going out with friends. Still palying pool on two teams. trying not to stay home. Dating. Getting laid. Counseling and meds yet nothing is helping me release my feelings.
