Strange turnaround today, we seem to have reverted back to pre Friday night chat. Guess that is good.
I also suggested a night out earlier during a friendly chat about something and W said yes. I said we don't have to if you don't want to and she said, no, that will be nice. No idea what it means, but I do get the impression that she may change her mind in time. However, due to the broken trust, I've no real idea if she is ever telling me the truth or not anymore, but I will say, she either is, or has good real good at lying rather quickly.
Will keep off the drink except for planned nights out and if it goes pear shaped, so be it. I didn't get aggressive or anything and just wanted clarification of things I was paranoid about and also through some 'facts' in there, hopefully she can understand why that is. i don't think I cam over particularly desperate and tBH, i'm kinda glad I got it all out there.
