Alison just repeating what I said yesterday Please consider seeing a Dr and getting some help or counselling.I really think it would help You. Remember you still have 2 daughters at home-how does it make them feel to see you like this because your son has left--I can tell you because my kids told me after I went into a black hole after H left. Worthless and of no importance because all I cared about was H -he had gone but they were still here. Don't make my mistakes, get help. Your daughters deserve the best mum you can be.