In the privacy of my home and head, I'm not so great, but outwardly, I'm trying to be confidant and upbeat.
I hear ya!!! I go to therapy maybe once a month and just went last week. She commended me on how well I am doing, how strong I appear. She said everything I am going through is normal. I said "Yeah, but you aren't in my head. There's all sorts of crazy up there". She smiled and said, "Even if I was in your head, I'd see normal.". Ok, phew.
Wow to your co-workers situation. Things could be so much worse. I have a new little fear in my head that I will get sick and not be able to care for my girls. Its not rational, but it is making me thankful everyday for my health. I am also thankful that while my H is being very selfish with HIS life, he continues to keep the girls safe and happy when he has them. I try to remember how much worse things could be.
