Continuing Forward--Beth's 3rd thread

[Beth 83]

I've worried about that one too, Jeff. That is the stance of my mother. As McBF told me, he said that he is willing to take that risk because we enjoy each other's company.

In re to my marriage and my feelings on H--I don't even know what I want anymore from him. I've been thinking alot more in the broad sense, not what do I want from my marriage with H, but what would I want from a husband? from a marriage? H and I started dating when we were 18. My first real boyfriend. I never really grew up from the image of him I had as a teenager (the image being a cool kid in HS) and I never thought about what I would need from a husband or a marriage. At the time, it was just going to be him--the end.