Angry is ok, totally normal. Just let it come and go, it will be replaced with something else soon enough. And sometimes that 'something else' is a good thing, like peace. I realized I cycle between so many emotions, some good and some bad. I just try to ride it out. Angry comes often as does sadness. But more and more these days, joy and peace poke in too, which is good. I think the key is not to get stuck in one emotion.
And for the record, that book, while I don't regret reading it, angered me greatly. It explained so perfectly what was happening with my H, but it angered me that H fell 'victim' to it. Why wasn't HE strong enough to make better choices?
Journaling:
H continues to avoid his family. He has new work friends, and new friends all around, apparently he doesn't need anyone that really "knows" him. New friends that don't know his history tend not to judge. So much easier for him to be around.
He continues to be selfish and not give me at least one weekend night every once in awhile to do what I would like (he says "get a sitter"). I asked him to watch the girls tonight (a Sunday night, c'mon!?) so I could go out for a bit, and I got a text of "We'll see". Fool. I would hire a sitter, but they have sitters all day because we are both working. They need Dad. I am angry (see Gypsy? lol Anger) and not sure quite how to handle this. I cherish my time with the girls, so I don't rock the boat much on that. But how selfish can he be? I should have not asked him at all, and just left when he got to the house. Live and learn.
