Basically I know what she is up to...be it good or bad how I found out at this point does not concern me. This new R with OM is starting up. At this point the facts are there has been no physical contact, no kissing, nothing like that. They are set to meet tomorrow at some time not sure of that yet. But I am certain they are to meet. The meeting place is at his house, which I also know where that is. (I have done a lot of homework & have way too much access to everything) I am having a problem in that 1 week ago W & I had a great talk and got on the same page of where our separation is and what we both expect. Due to finances we still in the same house trying to live as separate as possible. During this talk I gave her permission (if you can call it that) to see other people. My reasons were as follows: I really want her to be happy right now and she simply is not with me at the moment. She feels like she has no idea who I am and we are simply not connected at present. Second, I know of her new R that is starting up and hoped that she would share w/me about it so I would not "find out" from someone else etc. I just did not want it to happen behind my back. Which it is anyway. Last night again, had a great talk where I feel like there is a chance sometime in the future we could come back together. Now to the sabotage part...I am so tempted to make sure her day tomorrow is unpleasant. See I do all the cooking and there is a certain food that makes her gasey & burp up the taste for hours after eating it. Plus cooking w/a lot of garlic may be helpful in making her less desireable to the new guy. Sounds childish and probably is, but I just can't "let" things progress when I know about them like I do. Am I crazy (or heading that way), or would this get an "atta boy" or should I just let it go for now & pray and hope that we can work things out? My mind is racing with the things that I can do do throw as many monkey wrenches into her day w/him. I'm not usually like this, so I don't know what to do. I feel like I gave her the green light and that was dumb, however, she was already envolved w/the OM when I did. ARGH! This sucks. My other thought is to ask her, "so what's his name?" There have been other things going on that I have picke up on and I'm not stupid, so they are obvious signs. Dressing & looking especially good, making "work calls" Sat night at 8:30pm (which she NEVER DOES) on this call making "work plans" for a Sunday working day in her office, where the original plan was for her to work quietly w/o interruption from kids, or anything else since NO ONE is there on Sunday. Oh, and the project to be worked on is here at our house, so she will have to pack it all up and cart it 1/2 hour away unload it to work on it. All very fishy so I am thinking to just come out and ask her what the deal is. Although I am sure I would get a BS answer back. So if anyone has any advice I would like to hear it. I am pretty sure I will not do anything stupid, but this is all just too crazy.
Last edited by Doingmypart; 04/27/0806:59 AM.
ME 33 W 37 Together 8 M: 5+ disconnected: 5 D: 2 D: 3
