I stayed long enough to be prepared so that it is not forced nor is a last resort. It is merely the next natural step in the process of my life. You must understand my story. I had a 3 year MLC and have gone above and beyond to repair the damage. I've been tested, tried by fire, humbled and raised up. I am very much aware of the blessing I have already been given, in that the fact my husband and I are even friends is nothing short of miraculous. As for the rest, I've bounced the ball to him so to speak and I am walking off the court. This battle keeps me mired in my past and the guilt that is associated with it. I will never forget the things I did nor will they ever sit well in my soul. But to make myself pay for the rest of my life is not God's will for me and standing, at this stage, is nothing more than self-punishment. After 2 1/2 years of the valley, I'm walking out by the grace of God.
