first "official weekend" he has her. I feel so lonely. I know I should have made plans. I just want to nap. (just got up from one_. I feel so sad we aren't a family today. this is the total kind of day (not that long ago!) where we would get in the car and go find a great yard sale and just drive to a new town or whatever.
So f'ing sad he wants to throw that away. WHY didn't he tell, really tell me he was this unhappy BEFORE the A???"? My therapist told me the A gives them the courage to leave. I really believe that in our situation. It's just so unbelievable to me. there were def. issues, I had anxiety/panic attacks last fall and I know it scared him, but he said NOTHING and wasn't there at all for me throughout the whole ordeal. couldn't deal with it. I begged him to go to my dr. with me so my doc could explain anxiety and panic issues with him and he didn't want to go. H has now admitted, NOW, that last fall really sent him over the edge. Also, the sex thing, I could go on and on. I know I am just rambling but I'm just so amazed that my life got to this point and that he is so in this "thing" with this other person. And right now he is really acting like it will have no affect on our daughter. "She'll be fine" are his exact words. nice.
