Mishka's- new thread/new tude - H who?

[mishka422]

Purr,

One day at a time. Today has been a little rougher so far but I'm managing. I still haven't cried, so that's a plus. I've been on the verge but haven't done it.

Just got off the phone with H. He wanted to pick up S13 and I asked if he could take him out tonight instead of this afternoon since I'm going out. He wanted to know why he couldn't come get him now. I asked if he really wanted to keep him all day and into the evening and he said he didn't know why not.

I have a VERY bad feeling about this. I'm pretty sure he is going to try to take him to OW's house (aka - his new digs....rathole apartment in the worst part of town). We have no formal arrangements of any kind but he knows how I feel about exposing my son to that slut but I know I have no control over what he does with him. I don't permit him to have him overnight so that's a plus.

I'm going to continue to pray A LOT about getting through today while I'm mowing my lawn. Should be interesting to have H pick up son while he sees me doing something I've only done one other time before in my life.