Some really great insights on your part. You are growing so fast and being so productive. I as so proud of you......
I am reading the "Prodigals Perspective" for the 20th time. Your H is constantly thinking of you. When he is alone with OW and performing the nasty deed, he thinks of you. He feels in his heart that something is wrong, missing, etc... He misses his family, his past life, you... He is so unhappy and miserable. Take consolation in this. Believe it to be true. No one can replace your covenant spouse.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11