He kissed me last night and today and I am just disgusted by it.
Am I misreading again? Are you disgusted by your husband's kiss?
It sounds to me as if you are sorry you had an affair with an immature, out of control man. If OM would just move on, would you still be regretting the affair so much? Are you appreciating H now because he is helping you get rid of bad choice that you got in too deep with? Once that is no longer a threat, will you lose interest in H again? Maybe what you wanted all along was to make your H fight for you. Sounds like he was the quiet DBer, who just waits for the new relationship to fade away. Besides, he doesn't need to fight other men for you. He needs to fight you for you. You can bring in an endless parade of other men.
