Honey you have to be patient with yourself.
Change does not happen overnight.

You will get there in due time, one step at a time.

I remember when my Husband left, and I suddenly became a single uneducated, unemployed Mom overnight.

It was the scariest "season" of my life.

Honestly, it really does get better, and it is much better to be a Woman of integrity and high morals then to have a fancy schmancy piece of paper saying you went to a College or have a high paying job.

Having good character outweighs the other crap.

Keep persevering and you will attain your goals.

(((((((hugs)))))))

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.