So, just had a few more days of pretty good progress with my wife. Don't get me wrong, there are ups and downs........

Today, as an example, we were near a certain restaurant and I said "I've heard this place is pretty good" (I've never been there), and she said "not really". OK, that set me off. Same thing happened a few days ago. I said "so you've been here too. Great. In ten years with me, raising our kids, you and I made it out maybe four times to have dinner on our own (true story) and as soon as you get rid of me, you in every restaurant in town with other men. How do you thing that makes me feel? Never wanted to go out with me, but when I'm gone, you're out three nights a week doing all the things I wanted to do with you." She basically got pissy with me, said "You're getting worked up about something that cannot be changed - so stop". BTW, about ten minutes before I suggested that she and I get a babysitter and go to dinner tonight, to which she replied "we're not there yet".

After this, I was not in my best mood, to say the least. But, 30 minutes later I did apologize to her and said that even though there are things to go over, I should not have reacted that way. Rest of the day, we were fine.

We were in a minor auto accident about three weeks ago; rear ended slowly. However, wife has had some pretty consistent back and neck pain. Over just the last couple days, she is asking/allowing me to rub her back and neck to make it feel better. Just touching her completely "arouses" me. OMG..... Anyway, just two weeks ago, she wouldn't let me touch her. Progress.

She and I spent two or three hours tonight working on our Ss11's major class project. We did this together, had some fun together, laughed at a few things, and mostly just hung out.

This is all coming back together, I'm confident of that. Our children are reacting so wonderfully to it, and I do believe that my wife is really liking the way this is going as well. I'm just being impatient I guess. At the same time, I'm also letting my hurt come through, so I need to check myself.