Help Me Act AS IF, Part 5

[newnamenewlife]

My hatred/pain/agony over how my H is treating me just continues. Tonight I went out with friends; ds were at grandma's. I came home around 9:45 pm and H was finishing watching a movie. I stood there and of course he said nothing, then I decided to go out on a limb. I asked if he wanted to watch Juno, which we'd just gotten from Netflix. He said yes, we should check it out before we allow D11 to see it. I stood there a bit more. Nothing. I went upstairs to change into my pajamas and then started to cry on my bed. I don't think H heard. Shortly after, I heard him starting to watch Juno without me downstairs. I'm sure I could have come back down and watched with him, but he was being so passive and wouldn't say yeah, let's watch it, or do anything to invite me to join him so I felt like an idiot for having mentioned it. He just barreled ahead and watched it alone after I had suggested WE watch it.

I don't know why I am surprised, but I continue to be dumbstruck my my Hs coldness and passivity. This is a basically good, sweet, thoughtful guy so it is shocking to me that it's so easy for him to ignore me, especially when I take the risk (and a risk it is these days) and suggest we watch something together. He didn't look at me the entire time I was down there, didn't take his eyes off the TV. What is wrong with this man?

How can he be so cold, removed and unremorseful about how he is treating me? I try to ignore and GAL and accept it, but we have these moments that hit me so hard and hurt so terribly. Is this just some kind of Mars/Venus misunderstanding? He give me such clear stay-away vibes most of the time that it felt huge for me to suggest watching the movie together. When he didn't respond to that, I felt I couldn't return and simply start watching it with him.