The list is not going to work for when it comes to exploring non-platonic R's... I am too myopic in my perspective... I lack the ability to see beyond what was...
Instead - I need to take the approach that I take when I interview or prepare for a meeting with opposing side at work.
I do my research. I explore and make sure I have covered every direction the conversation may go in. I suppose it is a defensive type of preparation.
And then I stop. I allow myself to relax completely. I blank my mind. I go in w/o any expectation of which way things will go - prepared for the worst - yet having the ability to appreciate the best. I am completety open minded and neutral when I walk in.
That is what I think I need to do now. I have engaged in a defensive type of preparation. I am confident that I can recognize X-like people. I am ready.
Now I need to relax. I need to blank my mind - knowing and trusting that lessons learned will guide me where I need to go. And if someone intrigues me - open my mind to seeing him for who he is w/o expectation. Take one step at a time - knowing that at any time if I feel uncomfortable - I can step back. I lack the ability to predict what I need. However, I do not lack the ability to recognize what works if I see it.
For now - I am going to let this list thing go... It is not taking me where I need to go...
Thank you everyone for your posts. The X just left my head.
