Changing myself for myself

[Firekeeper]

my h is coming from his trip in couple weeks. i am already is anxious and dreading that time when he will be close, in the same household.

actually, i do not know even the date when he comes back, because he changed it but haven't tell me the new date. i think kids know it but i do not feel comfortable to ask them, it will put them in the middle.

and we have to decide about selling the house. i want to move to another state. kids are not coming back - they have their own lives so it would make sense to sell the house. i know he will insist on me taking care of the selling process as well. i will hate it.