Sometimes it's like learning to live and react totally opposite of what you are used to. That's what makes it hard. I mean, when someone hurts you you feel it and react accordingly. But now I am trying to trick myself into ignoring that pain. I have to smile when I feel sad. I have to suck it up and accept things the way they are. It is possible but it is hard...and freinds and family really can't understand it unless they have been there before....I am learning how to do it but much of my learning is just learning to become numb to it...I just hope I come out of this with my emotions intact. After all is said and done I will need to learn how to live and love again whether things work out or not. I just don't know how the emotional pain is going to play out after I bury it for so long....
H 42 W 37 M17 T20 years 3 daughters 11,11,14 seperated 11/26/07 EA neighbor/ moved in w/ him 2/8 Filed for D 01/08 finalized soon
