Mishka's- new thread/new tude - H who?

[mishka422]

I really feel like I have accomplished something great! I have made it through more than 24 hours now without crying one time!

I know it sounds like a small thing but this is huge for me! I have felt so sad and depressed and not having this constant feeling of being on the edge of tears is really wonderful.

Yes, it can be done! Yes, I can move forward and be happy with my life without my husband. I now know for certain that I don't want things to go back to the way they were. I know I can never live like that again - not being respected and cherished by the man I loved and gave up my plans for. I am now living for me and my son and that's as it should be.

If my H someday works his way through his MLC and truly regrets what he has done to his family and expresses that then we can talk about our M. That day may never come and I will just have to be ok with that. I know that no matter what happens I will be a stronger more whole person now.