IT BAFFLES ME TO NO END WHEN I POUR SOMETHING OUT LIKE THAT EMAIL AND ALL I GET IT " IDONT UNDERSTAND WHY YOU THINK IM NOT 100% BACK...I SAY I AM" I MIGHT AS WELL SLAM MY HEAD INTO A WALL.

IVE GIVEN UP ON EVER BEING INTAMATE. WELL FOR NOW. IM NOT ANGRY, JUST REALIZING IT AINT GONNA HAPPEN AND IVE STARTED FILL MY HEAD WITH UGLY THOUGHTS AFTER READING HIS LETTER TO HER...KEEPS CREEPING IN MY HEAD.

Me 53
H 51
OW 25
Bomb may 06
left june 8/ 06
ILYBNILWY (twice!)
7/6/07 H wants to come home
7/21/07 H comes home
7/07 -7/08 long haul letting go of OW
now piecing in earnest