You know I did delete my post earlier as being much too negative but my emotions are still very much all over the place, mostly down.

I know there are definite positives in my life. I know to look at them and focus on them rather than the negatives but for some reason I have always seemed to need to FEEL the down emotions for a while before I can turn myself around. I noticed that behavior during D's affair and the divorce. It seems the pattern is still the same.

I am also very tired today. I don't know if I am as physically tired or emotionally tired and down enough to be at the place to feel physically tired.

As weepy as I am today I would think it was PMS and hormones out of wack if I hadn't spent the past entire 4 weeks bleeding!

At least it is a beautiful sunny day and I hope I get a doggy home tonight.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"