Finding DB late in the game #4

[cw68]

No no no. Go Blackhawks! I grew up with a bunch of kids whose Dads played for the 'Hawks. Both of the Esposito brothers lived in my town and I saw Stan Makita often, his regular drug store was the one at which I worked. Then I went to school in Madison Wisconsin and got bit hard by the college hockey bug.

This morning was the first morning when I haven't been out of town that I haven't seen my kids off to school. I am crying. Got to talk to my daughter, but son was "busy" eating. I heard my MIL in the background saying that he had to eat, that he didn't have time to talk. They didn't have to leave for a half-hour, he didn't have to bring a lunch to school and it doesn't take THAT long to get him ready. Made me sad. I don't think she was trying to keep him from me or anything like that, but good god can someone think of me a little here? Maybe I'd really, really, really like to talk to him? Does anyone here notice that I'm sad and missing my kids? Or is everyone just focused on the kids and my poor little unhappy mini-mlc, mini-cheating husband and how f-ed up he is? Can I get a little light over here please?

It just kills me that I'm going to miss so much of my kids lives against my own will! That is the single biggest issue I have with whole situation. It is so not fair. For me or for them. How many vacations am I going to miss? Like the first time my son snorkled, will those future first be with me? or their Dad? Whose going to be there when they loose a tooth? I have to stop this. Going to the gym now to work out some issues.