My guidance in spirituality is now stained,static driven. I no longer feel the comfort of a higher being which to be quite honest is the most alarming.
an thus the work of the devil is done, he's put so much against you that it has worked, he's overwhelmed you and you no longer feel there is anyone up there listening (yet again, that's how stbx started going downhill, he started to doubt and then stop believing).
You are bigger than all your problems whapu, you CAN and WILL come through this, even it means leaving/temp S. Your W needs a huge wake up call, much like me that year H left, I never understood what I was doing and no amount of his silence nor "hints" made me understand what I was doing to my M. Don't wait until there is nothing left of you and (sorry) like stbx, finds he's lost something inside him and just can't find it anymore.
Sadly, she doesnt see that she is putting her work above you, just like I put kids/house chores above stbx because I thought I was "doing the right thing". All her needs are being met so in her eyes all is great. Whatever decision you make, do it on your knees, even if you are not 100% someone is listening, do it, just pour all that is eating at you. You are in my prayers dear friend, please take care of yourself)))))))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
