Enjoying my life!!!

[kissak]

Thanks for posting anew2moro...I wish you would do so more often. I look forward to hearing from you.

I sure dont feel amazing. I feel really bad this morning. I guess I am having second thoughts about the NC thing. I just feel bad. I know I shouldnt though. I guess a part of me wants him to call me and miss me. I feel like he is now mad at me. I feel like I was wrong to be so ugly to him.

I know, he has treated me badly in regards to breaking my heart and playing with my emotions.

I shouldnt feel bad, but I do. Im not a mean person by nature and to tell him that I never want to talk to him or be his friend, well that is going against my nature. Im sad about it.

But I know...i shouldnt be.

Im just still so angry and hurt by all that he has done. All the things he has said to me to get my hopes up just hurt even more.

I just want to cry today.

How can someone say they care about you and miss you and do nothing about it?

Please tell me guys that I am doing the right thing by NOT talking to him.

I want a bandaid so bad.