To agree to a D or not..... that is the question

[ACJ]

Went to the Sports Awards at D12 and S15s school last night. I took D12 and H took S15. I was unsure whether they were there for ages b/c i couldn't see either of them. then it was S15s turn to get up on stage for his award so it became obvious he at least was there. He was wearing a shirt of Hs that I used to like on him. If it fits S15 now it definately won't fit H any longer given how much weight he has put on recently.

When I sat down originally I sat in a place where if H wanted to he could sit next to me (thinking he had not yet arrived). As it turned out an ex neighbour of ours came and sat next to me on one side and people I didn't know on the other. At the end of the evening it transpired that H had been sitting about two rows behind me all night. He had sat with S15s GFs parents as they were there for their younger son.

I asked H if he had called the music teacher again but he reminded me the teachers had been on strike all day. I felt a bit stupid at that point.

When we all left to go it was very hard for me. H had parked in a completely different place to me so left via a different exit. I hugged S15, told him how much I loved him and left with D12. The tears were welling in my eyes.

I know I have done the right thing for S15 but this has set me back emotionally.