Well, I thought I'd share and hope for more support... This week has been good, H and I have been talkin a lot and spending tons of time together. We got bikes together and went biking, watched a couple shows together, have been emailing each other and talking to each other during the day. He has kissed and hugged me every day when he gets home. He even surprised me with flowers. We have plans for the weekend and have a babysitter coming. It's picture perfect.
Why am I still empty feeling? Why do I still feel like the hugs are ok, but the kisses are fake (on my side)? Why do I still feel like something is missing? Why do I still have no desire to be with him sexually? Why do I feel angry and sad at the same time?
Why can't I be happy? Why can't I get the feelings for this man that is being so wonderful?
I have been true to my word and have made no contact with the OM x 2 even though the one has contacted me and pleaded for me to contact him. I do plan on getting rid of him being able to leave me messages, but like I said before I am waiting because I want to make sure he doesn't pursue revenge and tell families, etc. I'd rather know ahead of time if he does.
I need some ideas on how to start "feeling" for my husband.
