Help Me Act AS IF, Part 5

[newnamenewlife]

me again. I really am so confused because H&I and the girls routinely have a blast together. We were totally silly at dinner, me & H cracking each other up, the girls giggling. We have fun like that a lot. I feel like the chemistry between H&I is still so obviously crackling, yet once the girls are asleep he totally ignores me, doesn't want to do anything with me, and when we ever talk about our R situation (which isn't very often), he's always in the same ILYBINILWY place and is determined to S as soon as he can figure out the financial piece of it.

I feel like a naive teenager at times--completely convinced that this guy likes me a LOT, but then crushed to learn it's just a fantasy on my part. How can someone give such mixed messages? Honestly, if H&I didn't know each other and you saw us at times lately, you would think to fix us up. But whenever we talk about it, H discounts everything but the fact that he is not "in love" with me anymore.

I know--I go around and around and around on this board and nothing really changes. We have fun, then he pulls back, then we have fun again, and on and on. I am certainly not doing anything to hasten his moving out--esp since we are in no financial position--but I am also tired of living with him in this psycho state.