No, there was no agreement perse. And your point is well taken because that's EXACTLY how she's looking at it.
My point is that regardless of what was said or not, we were/are still married. I had an oppurtunity to do the same thing but chose not to out of respect for the M. I was a jerk in other was but I did not cross that line. Added to the very limited events themselves is the fact that it started so shortly after we were separated and while I was talking to her about second thoughts on my end. Point is, rational or not, the situation hurt me and I would like an apology as sincere as the one I provided her for what I did. I don't want to beat her with it or hold it over her, I just want her to be able to see it from my perspective. I don't need her to agree with how I see it, just understand and apologize from that direction.
And I believe her about the physical aspect because she doesn't lie to me, ever. Even when I want her to, she doesn't.
All that said, I can't let that be a barrier to a reconciliation. I love her and she's worth the effort on my part to let this thing go. What I was hoping for is some resources from you all about how I can go about that. Personal experiences or appropriate reading or something.
