Sorry about the multiple posts - my computer wigged out on me.
I'm also sorry about your sister. I lost my father 10 years ago - same month as my sister. I think that time makes it easier, but the loss never goes away. I think about them both every day. They are still very much in my heart.
My sister was a good listener about my H. I miss her. We knew she was terminal, but it happened sooner than we had thought.
I'm not a buddhism expert by any means, but several things in this book spoke to me. I used to be rather spiritual - then I got married! I did join the catholic church nearby last year when things were real bad.
I haven't been posting here, but I did want to find you. I don't think SSM is the right place for me anyway as our real problems are deeper than that. SSM is H's definition of our problem, not mine. I think I need to be happy in spite of my M, or I need to leave.
Doing nothing feels like a big sigh of relief right now - after having tried so many different things for so long. I am starting to explore my spirituality again - things about believing in myself and having compassion for others, even my H. I do have compassion for him, but I don't always show it. So, perhaps being quiet and doing nothing is a way to reach him. I don't know.
