Just not sure what to say on here any more. I think I finally know what it's like to be terminally ill, however for me it does kind of have a time line. I use to think I wouldn't come on here unless I had at least some words of encouragement, but I just had to vent. Perhaps what I could say is this, even though you feel like just giving up, you don't want this.
I don't know what the "big plan" is for me, however I do know what I have done and what I have put up with. I do know that W will get to enjoy the "mill stone" that comes from making this kind of choice. All though it might seem all normal on the surface, I have seen too many people's past D memories and resentments come to the surface as soon as I tell them what is happening to me.
Still trying to figure out how we're going to approach the kids about this one. The more I read this post, perhaps it is time for a new forum for me. Let's see, is there a "going down in flames" forum. Perhaps D but not done would be the closest fit. Not sure today if "not done" applies. I knew in high school I wanted nothing to do with the legal system, thirty years later I still have the same position.
Keep up the good fight DBers, this really does suck.
