h4h I know the feeling - it is like taking your heart out of your chest, wrap it in a golden foil and ceremoniously give it to her, thinking she would be pleased to receive such a treasure, but the answer is that she doesn't care.... it is shocking, it has been shocking for me.
I was reading some posts about going dark. While I try to be as mysterious as I can, and I disclose very little of what I do, WAW is much "darker" then I am. Now she barely talks to me - just the strict necessary to deal with the kids. We used to be best friends, and even after we split, we were acting as good friends, talk about our day, etc. I think in the last couple of weeks or so the R with OM got in full swing and there is no more space for me not even as a friend, she is in the middle of a love story and this is the only thing that matters. I thought to write her an email saying that if she needs me I am still her friend, but I decided not to, there is no point right now - if in the future there is going to be the chance to show my friendship I will. For now she wants out of the picture. Too bad. I still need to concentrate more on myself. I need to have to picture more clearly in my mind a life without her. Still venting....
