should I dip my toe?

[buenosuerte]

my belief is that as well provided in a human world in this whole mess, the grandparents would invite for visits or call or something. especially with them knowing they are her only grandparents. unfortunately, the grandparents threw my daughter and me away when their son did.

i do try to be the better person and think of it in my 7 1/2 months old eyes with those relationships, i just tend to believe they don't genuinely care for her - had a hospital incident where h along with his whole family didn't take it seriously until they saw the medical bill from the hospital, as my d and i sat in the emergency room with no support.

i could be doing 180's for his family all the way but fear the run in with the h. at this point in time i'm liking the peace of not having to see him or all that emotional train wreck

it also feels like using my d as a pawn

i could take her over to the grandparents house for a brief visit like once a week, but i think h will see it as a ploy or fishing expedition or just something negative all around