Sad but true what you said, regarding wanting what we can't have. I have really thought the past few days about this from a different angle. I have read around here that WAW's and LBS's switch roles. That being said, If my H is feeling how I did, he will want nothing more than for me to leave him the hell alone. Hopefully, given a little time on his own, he will as I did, wake up, and think "what on earth am I doing?" It's one of those watch and wait type things.
My coach made a brief mention of give it at least two-three more weeks. Which would make it a total of 5 weeks. If I still have not heard from him at that point, I may even go a little farhter. My family is having a reunion in my hometown, who knows, I may run into him while I'm down there. That is May 10th. If after that, I still haven't heard nothing, I will probably set up another coaching session, and see where we need to go. I have been at this for a year now, the first year was tough, and I did things my way, listened half a%s to people, and the coaches; however, now I get it. I get the meaning of all of this stuff. I have found peace and happiness inside of me. Me just being me is a great feeling, not having to be somone who I am not, and I have let go of a lot of anger I held within. I would like to have an opprotunity for my H, to get to know this newer updated Christa 08 *for windows or mac*(LOL)!!! however, in the end only one person knows if that is truly going to happen. I am putting my R/M in His hands now.
Take care, Christa
H-32 Me-29 T-10years M-4yr (10/04) Me- WAW 1/07 I filed for D 2/07 D put on hold 5/07 H re-files for D 9/08 WOW! trying MC 10/08
"Work like you don't need the money, dance like nobody is watching, love like you've never been hurt!"
