Enjoying my life!!!

[kissak]

Im so sad, yet mad at the same time. I mean....2 nights ago it was him saying "me and the OW are not back together"...to her dumping her bf again and my H back at her place tonight.

This is soooo childish. So middle school. So dumb that people actually want to play this game.

It makes me sick. Is completely going dark on him going to get my point across about how stupid he and all this really is?

Come on. This is so pathetic.

I really dont want him calling my house anymore even to talk to the kids. Im so fed up with him. Im thinking of telling him if he wants to speak to his kids he can buy them a cell phone so he can call them whenever he wants. Im thinking I will have to have my house phone turned off anyway for financial reasons and I do not even want him calling my cell phone.

He knows I am angry. He hasnt called or texted all day. He did call my cell phone tonight but left no message. I think he only called my cell because the House phone was busy. Im sure he was only calling to talk to the kids.

No reminding of ball practices or games, he has schedules of them. He will have to do like I do...call the coach if he wants to know something.

Son has a game on Friday night. I will not remind him.

No more BORROWING MY lawn mower to mow HIS yard.

He can buy his own.

Ha! I can do this. It is becoming easier and easier every time he does this crap!!

Why cant he see that if he doesnt fix himself first, it wont even work with the OW?

I have to say I have never seen someone so addicted to another person. They both are. Yet, when they are together, they end up breaking up over stupid little stuff every time.

I dont know why I even concern myself. I

I have to let go.

I have to be done.

I will NOT tell him though.

I KNOW without a doubt that he thinks he can come kissing back up to me once again down the road and ask for another chance.

BUT....what he doesnt know is that he has already used up his last chance.

I was alot closer this last time than ever, you know? I actually told him NO chance unless he was to cut all contact...then I would only consider it.

Now people are telling me that in the beginning of all of this she did leave her H for mine.

They will have to answer to God for this one day. I am proud that I didnt let my marriage go easily. I fought for it.

Im sad....but Im done.

NOT saying the door cant be opened back up again one day....but there is NO chance in this world I could ever, ever trust him again.

I do deserve to be loved .