Again, thank you. Hearing from someone who has been there makes such a difference.
I try very hard to keep things light all the time. In response to my seeming fine and ready to move on without him, he felt that he had enough space to stay and see how things go. I just don't know how long I can keep this up - tears are more and more frequent. I act when we're together, putting myself in the place where he was, where he just pretended he was fine but clearly was not, for a really long time. I'm not sure that's terribly productive. He's pretending too, a lot of the time. Isn't there any way to be real without being scary? For my own sake, I need to find a way to do that.
