ok so i talk to W. i told her what i needed. i told her i know that it is humiliating but it is what i wanted and needed to forgive. she flet like we were at sq 1. i told her that we really are not. it may fel like it but i told her i woulndn't even call it a bad day. i told her that i felt 3 sentences really isn't enough.
she said that i am really enjoying this. i practically came unglued. i told how dare she think that i even for a second enjoy this. i knew that she was refurling to me making her tell me. i told her no matter what she neds to do it. i also told her to tell me like it is the first time that i found out. every little dirty detail. she told me that it will take a couple of days to do i feel better about this now.
a couple of thoughts come to my mind. we as men the trend seems for men just to suck it up and be men. i feel so wek and open for my heart to be crushed. i have never felt so helpless. any advice to make me feel like a man again?
