I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
Addie, the email is showing some emotions toward you. Your H is lost and is starting to see life is not as good without you in it. Good luck on your reply. It appears he is reaching out to you.
Stella, Ping, Eagle, I agree that H is reaching out however, each time he does, he withdraws right back into his tunnel for a while. I don't think I sounded needy in my reply. In fact, I wonder if I was a bit distant.
Here are some of the things I wrote:
-I appreciate you communicating your thoughts. -I realize you don't want to hurt me and for that I am grateful -I am sorry you are living with this confusion -Although the last few months have been very painful for me, I realize that you have also endured much pain. I am on my path towards healing and finding my inner peace -You asked if I could forgive you. In time yes. Forgiveness will be the ultimate gift I give to myself (right from Michelle). The alternative would be to harbor feelings of anger and resentment and I will not live like that. -Will I ever forget what has happened? No, but I know I will learn from this and move forward. -As far as your comment about things being stale - good marriages don't just happen, they take a lot of hard work. "The grass is only greener where you water it" (I've seen this statement many times on this bb and thought I would give him some food for thought). -I suppose we have both taken each other for granted. -It's important to keep the lines of communication open, if only for S11's sake.
I thought I would be honest with some things. There comes a time when things must be talked about. I am tired of burying all my feelings. I don't think I pushed it.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
You are doing so well. I have been reading your thread and just wanted to say it sounds like you are doing well. I think you email is right on. I was told today to look at these 6 steps - 1) Reduce negative emotions 2) Good energy, even and comfortable 3) Friendship 4) Romance 5) Reconciliation
As you know, I am on step one and two. You seem to be heading to three. Patience, good outlook and confidence.
Keep the faith!
CBK
M=46 W=47 M=24 (together 26) D21, S19 Bomb 3/16/08 OM 3/28/08 WAW moved out 5/16 Divorce final 10/09
I didn't hear from H at all yesterday but I know he was extremely busy with work and having to get an assignment finished by today. He did call first thing this morning and asked me if I had a good sleep. He's coming by this evening to be with S while I go to a dance class. I didn't expect a response to my email. I'm sure he's thinking things through. He's also busy/preoccupied with this job interview on Monday.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
