Yup, at times it keeps coming up. I like to put things in little boxes and make sense of them but often the more you try to do that the more mixed up it makes you! In reality, the little box thing is not real life anyway. Things just can't be wrapped up so neatly although I keep trying. Once I get through this little social occasion, these thoughts will subside. I guess having to deal with her makes me feel very vulnerable. It's all part of the trip I'm on, I guess, and the CB stuff is mixed in with the XW stuff. I question my judgement, the boundaries I set (or don't set) with woman etc. And yes, OT you've said it all before, I know but there are going to be times when all that stuff just rises to the surface again, hopefully less and less! I'm trying and sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. Sorry I'm annoying you! Just an add on, Yes I actually have been avoiding CB. I have made plans each night I may have had to see her to avoid it. I'm actually proud of making that decision. I saw it was making me feel bad and changed the situation, I took control. So, I'm not a lost cause yet!
