I almost want to say I see the "godlight" shining in you.
Just kidding. I have no time to puke this afternoon.
What I do see is a man who is being grounded in the Truth and is reflecting grace, strength and kindness.
God is, perhaps, showing you that you do, indeed, matter to him and that's he's got your back. Let me say that falling into the hands of the living God is a frightening thing. It appears counter-intuitive and risky at times to loosen our grip and to place our trust in God, but in the long-run it's the safest place to be. The adventure is just beginning.
If you liked Tim Keller's book, I suggest listening to his online sermons. He preaches much better than he writes. I should know, he was my pastor for several years. His sermons are kick-a$$. No positive, self-actualizing mush. He dishes it out hard-core. Yet, he invites you into a relationship with the One who makes all things new and who pours goodness, grace and truth into our hearts.
You are more sinful and broken than you ever imagined, yet, in Christ, you are more loved and accepted than you ever dared to hope.
And you know what? If you wife turns around, it won't be your job, it'll be God's going. And if she doesn't, well...trust that God knows what he's doing anyway.
Now if I can only get myself to believe that more fully. ;-)
Pray for me Frank, as I'll pray for you.
Regarding the name change and the tattoo....MLC, MLC, MLC.
Your wife needs her true name to be spoken to her by God, who writes it on a white stone.
