SWL....I know I deserve so much better. He probably would agree to that...and I know he didnt come "back" those last two times, but he asked for a chance.
I dont think he wants to save himself either at this point. He thinks he is trying by going to counseling...but I think if I was to let him off the hook and say IM DONE! He would be so relieved.
But dark will be easy. Hardly thought of him today really. Been tied up here at work with a difficult customer. It has completely kept my mind off of things. The only time he has come up to thought is here and when I thought I heard my phone buzz.
Im ok. He wont never come back. But he will keep me on that string when things arent rosey with them. I have recognized all the patterns now.
I am cutting the string. I dont want no man who wont treat me as "special".
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
